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Sliggoo- A Goopy Situation by blueharuka Sliggoo- A Goopy Situation :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 187 13 Show me the Stars- Commission by blueharuka Show me the Stars- Commission :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 67 12 A pretty Parasaur by blueharuka A pretty Parasaur :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 134 7 Aromatisse- The Fragrant Dancer by blueharuka Aromatisse- The Fragrant Dancer :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 138 9 A Battle Spectacular! by blueharuka A Battle Spectacular! :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 214 13 Daskr- The Controlling Elder by blueharuka Daskr- The Controlling Elder :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 81 9 Poliwhirl and Poliwrath- The Soul and Swole frog by blueharuka Poliwhirl and Poliwrath- The Soul and Swole frog :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 318 25 On the Prowl- Commission by blueharuka On the Prowl- Commission :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 126 5 Monster Hunter- Royal Ludroth by blueharuka Monster Hunter- Royal Ludroth :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 120 16 Spotted Glory- Commission by blueharuka Spotted Glory- Commission :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 38 6 Pokemon Headcanon- Flygon Mandibles by blueharuka Pokemon Headcanon- Flygon Mandibles :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 146 22 ChibiTiger!- Commission by blueharuka ChibiTiger!- Commission :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 71 2 Double Trouble- Commission by blueharuka Double Trouble- Commission :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 42 3 Delightful!- Gift by blueharuka Delightful!- Gift :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 49 3 Matriarch: Trapped! by blueharuka Matriarch: Trapped! :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 85 3 Monster Hunter: Iodrome by blueharuka Monster Hunter: Iodrome :iconblueharuka:blueharuka 89 8
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SCORE!

Finally saved up enough money to purchase a Nintendo Switch!

Though, still not gonna buy it just yet.
I would prefer to have finished up all of my commission orders first, that way I'd at least feel like I truly earned it. ^^;

Plus, buying the switch alone would completely empty my account, and having $0 is NEVER fun.....

Still searching for illustration jobs online and also still having rotten luck. :( Not gonna give up, tho.
Commissions are still very much open if anyone is interested. :)

Things are moving quite slowly, but I have not forgotten about anyone.
I'm just a very slow worker due to being an extreme perfectionist. ^^;

Speaking of perfectionism, it's often the thing that causes many commissions to take way longer than they probably should.

I think it's about time I actually speak up about this and get this off my chest.

I really want pieces to look absolutely perfect for the buyer, especially since even though I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be on this subject, there's a small part of me that still believes that my art isn't worth the prices I'm charging.

So that leaves me to struggle a lot with getting a piece to look 100% perfect....

But then I run into a problem...or several...

"What color is this character's eyes? The ref just has black dots...
Oh geez, I'm having a hard time with posing this OC....
Wait, are these markings symmetrical???
What kind of background did they want again, they forgot to mention it in the description..."

These are problems that I often run into a lot and the first thing that comes to mind is that I should message the buyer
and speak with them about it....but often times I don't. Mainly out of fear and embarrassment.

"I'm the artist, dammit. I'm supposed to be a professional. I should KNOW these things.
It's probably already on the ref/order info and I was just too blind and stupid to see it, lemme just check it again."

This is something I often think to myself. Silly and weird, right?...I know.
So I go back to the provided reference or email / note to see if I missed any important info,
only to see that sometimes whatever necessary missing info really just isn't there.
That's when my anxiety kicks in and I really start freaking out. Sometimes having literal panic attacks even.

Again, I should be messaging the buyer and letting them know about the problem I'm in, but I immediately become flustered.

I get so scared and embarrassed by the thought of potentially bothering them /making them angry for not knowing something so simple or allowing so much time to pass and not mentioning such a problem way sooner.
And with that added on to the stress of school and life matters, it all becomes so much that I just---
shut down and completely stop functioning altogether. And then comes the panic attacks I mentioned earlier. :roll:

Well, I'm sick of that always happening and I want to change that.

I want to try and work on improving my communication skills with the progress of commissions,
as I know I have a bad habit of staying way too quiet about these things.

It's not because I'm trying to be underhanded or that I have forgotten about someone (Trust me, my consciousness and super strong sense of guilt for EVERYTHING I do won't allow it.) but because I've just developed this extreme and irrational fear of potentially being 'annoying' and 'Asking too many stupid questions' to the buyer, in turn making me stay unreasonably quiet when I probably should be asking vital questions and posting updates.

This leads to me making the rather foolish decision of trying to do everything on my own even when
I'm already extremely stressed and confused about something when instead I should be asking for help.

I want to try and break out of that fear if at all possible. 

I already know that this is gonna be hard for me (Because I'm such a damn anxiety-ridden mess of a person),
but I really want to make an effort to try to be more active in speaking up when I have a problem like this when doing commissions.

It really feels nice to finally say that after having held all that in for like, 2 or 3 years...

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:iconthemutantlizard:
themutantlizard Featured By Owner 2 days ago
WOW you have a LOT of talent. Seriously you should have a career in animation 
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:iconinklopbunny:
inklopbunny Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the favourite!
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:iconskifflethevolflock:
SkiffleTheVolflock Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks a lot for the llama, buddy)))))
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:iconblueharuka:
blueharuka Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sure thing! :thumbsup:
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:iconsky-kitsu:
Sky-Kitsu Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2018   General Artist
Hi there- I just discovered your art and I want to say that you are a brilliant artist! I love the way you interpret Pokemon. :heart:
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:iconblueharuka:
blueharuka Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry for the late reply! ^^;

Thank you!

I'm glad you enjoy my works. :heart:
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D-jackson Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018
If you're looking for a writer for anything, I'm available for any fiction you want me to write for free.
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PlagueMage Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2018  Student Digital Artist
♥ Thanks for the favie ♥
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:iconcorovera:
Corovera Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your takes on Pokemon! You seem to have found a good middle ground as far as realism goes - adding more detailed features and textures without going too far and making them unrecognizable.
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LuckyLombaX Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I been trough your entire gallery to fave like a massive bomb. I feel horrible for not watching you before. Your stuff is amazing!!!
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